Nothing has changed

As I live each day, apart from you, 

I realise that for me nothing has changed

For even in an ever changing world, I am still connected to you...

I still wake up in the morning looking forward to hearing your voice 

I still dream of the time we can spend together when you return

I still guard, the time that we did and may get with intense possessiveness 

I still feel like fighting with you for assuming that I can manage on my own

I still wonder, for a second, if its your call I missed and if  it will come again

I still stare at the door way and imagine you there: face, alive with your grin

I still wish I could feed you more, more food and joy, love and passion 

I still pray for your health and joy, every morning in vain

I still look at your photos and think, "My! How handsome he is, this man of mine"...

I still treasure the moments you made me laugh and the love we shared, 

I still smell your clothes and cover them with kisses in my loneliness

I still think everyday that since I have you in my life, I am truly lucky and blessed 

I still yearn for a touch, a kiss, a hug,,anything tangible..

And I realise, for me nothing has changed ...as I still..

I still belong to you and you still have my heart and always will